A new beginning...

Hi!

Well... This is awkward...

When was the last time I blogged? I used to blog so religiously. Till life got in the way. LOL.

Looked through my old blog and seriously, WHAT THE FUCK?

The things I used to blog about and let's not even mention the ugly photos. Just horrible. No. We're not gonna relive that. Thus, I decided to make a new blog! Not deleting the old one cause even though the stuff in there are LOL-worthy, it is nonetheless, full of memories. It dated all the way back in 2006 when I was...14? WHOA. And my last post was in 2012!

So my dear "diary", let me catch you up with what's been happening in the last year of my life.

Firstly, me and K broke up. Well, more like I dumped his ass. And I never looked back since! (Okay fine. So, maybe I did look back 3 or 4 times. But hey! I'm only human.) He was, after all, my first boyfriend. He is always gonna be tucked somewhere in my heart, no matter what. But after almost 3 years of being together, I finally came to realise what all my family and friends have been trying to tell me. HE IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME. He never was. Sure, there were times when he was oh-so-damn sweet to me and treated me like I'm the very air that he breathes. But there were more sadness and anger and disappointment in the relationship than there was happiness and joy. And that was not a good or a healthy sign in any relationship. So when he cheated on me again for the third time, THAT WAS IT. No more chances. I've given too much energy, tears and forgiveness to that toxic relationship. I was done.

Initially, I kept telling my friends "what if he was the only one who will ever love me?" and "what if I never find someone else ever again and I end up being 70 and alone and I won't even be a crazy cat lady cause I'm scared of cats?" #truestory And this is why my friends are THE BEST cause they would give me a death stare and roll their eyes and give me some lovin' nags about how ridiculous I'm being and that someday, my prince charming will come.

Honestly, I've never been happier. Sure, once in a while, there are moments where I get lonely and wish I had forgiven him one more time or thoughts like "what if I had forgiven him for the last time and he had really change?" But I don't want to compromise anymore. What's the point of being together when there's no more trust? I don't want to be with him just because he's familiar. I'd rather be alone and able to do whatever I please and the only people I have to answer to are my parents. I'm tired of getting my heart broken. I'd rather wait 10 years for a guy who give me his heart and treats me like a princess than be with someone who keeps breaking my heart, in a moment of weakness. I thank Allah for opening my eyes and letting me see what kind of person he really is. I guess, I didn't know who I fell in love with afterall....

And that's my love life.

In other news, my mum just celebrated her 50th birthday 2 days ago!

Yeap. My mum's finally 50th. A few more years to CPF! HAHAHA. We went all out! Had a staycation with my dad's side of the family at Park Royal @ Pickering. So I thought why not celebrate her birthday too? So we asked the hotel if they have any services for birthdays and two of the staff came up with a cake and sang happy birthday. Boy, was she caught off guard! She even got presents - a nespresso coffee machine and Jimmy Choo perfume, from my aunt, uncle and cousins.

Baby Maya came too! Yeap, my first niece from my dad's side. I may or may not be obsessed with her. (I DEFINITELY AM SO OBSESSED WITH HER! I mean, who wouldn't?!?! She's so damn cute!!!)

She's not even one yet and she eats everything in sight. I'm serious. When she see food, she will go to it. And when she see you holding food, she will go to you. So whenever I wanna carry her or kiss her or cuddle her, I just bribe her with food and she will go with me willing. LOL.

The staycation was nice. The hotel was awesome! It's so pretty and the room was pretty comfy too. We got a Junior Suite and managed to fit about 8-10 people? HAHAHA. The view is AMAZING!! And I LOVE LOVE LOVE the swimming pool area. But unfortunately, I forgot to take pictures of it. *slaps forehead*

Took advantage of the empty gym and burn a couple of calories cause I had been eating wayyyy too much! (Which really was a waste cause I haven't work out ever since. It's been a week! I feel my fats coming back again!!!)

Since the staycation was an advanced birthday celebration, at midnight, me and my dad surprised her with a mini "cake". It was more of a cinnamon twist that I got from Starbucks at the very last minute, cause I totally forgot about it! Opps!

Got her a Prada wallet since her wallet look worn out already and my dad didn't get her anything since he already paid for her Prada handbag last month! HAHAHA.

On the actual day of mumsie's birthday, me and my parents went for a buffet at Fairmont Hotel's Asian Market Cafe!

Quite a wide variety of food and the chili crab was soooooo meaty! Syiok!! And that was the end of my mother's 50th birthday celebrations!

But really, I am so thankful to Allah for letting me have more time with her.

You see, in late 2011, she was diagnosed with womb cancer. It was stage 1, at first. The doctor had to operate and take out her whole womb. At the same time, they took out some lymph nodes as well, to check if the cancer had spread. Unfortunately, one of the lymph nodes was found to be cancerous. So from stage 1, it become stage 3. That means, she have to go through chemotherapy and radiation. So for the past year, she had to go through the treatments and endure the hair loss and pain. My mum lost a lot of weight! Everybody kept commenting on how skinny she had become and some even ask her what's her secret. LOL.

Hari Raya 2012, when she had just completed her chemotherapy, I think! She didn't have much eyebrows and was pretty skinny (though the picture doesn't really show that!)

Luckily for her, she was already taking one year off from work, with the intention to help my dad who had opened a restaurant in Johor. But since she was sick, she couldn't help anymore. Also, at that time, I was waiting for my university classes to start. So atleast she had someone to accompany her for the check-ups and treatments. In the middle of it though, my classes started. So once in a while, she had to go chemotherapy by herself and me or my dad would then pick her up. Thank goodness, I didn't have classes everyday. So most of the time, I could still manage to accompany her.

Due to the advance technologies nowadays, my mum didn't suffer much side effects from chemotherapy other than feeling really weak, losing her hair and her immunity got really weak. Not once did she vomit or fainted as before the treatments, the doctors would give her several medications to prevent most side effects from occurring. YAY TECHNOLOGY!~

Anyways, my mum is now cancer-free and has even went back to work!

Though now, her left leg is now swollen. The doctors took out her lymph nodes near the leg, thus, she was not supposed to be walking so much and she can no longer wear high heels. But my mother being stubborn, she still wear high heels to work. Her defence? "But the heels is barely there!"  -___________- And unlike me, my mum LOVES to go out! She has never like staying home much. So when she had gotten better and gained her energy back, she keeps going out with her friends/colleagues. Yes, my mum's life is more happening than mine.

She went for the leg check-up the other day and the doctor suggested her to go for surgery and to take lymph nodes from other parts of her body and to place it there and also to go for liposuction for her legs and suck all the excess water. She's still thinking about it, though I'm gonna convince, no, force her to go for the operation. So please pray for her speedy recovery, yeah?

Oh. Did I mention that I am now, officially, a WORKING ADULT? Yes. I got a full-time job now as a research writer for a production company. It's not exactly what I want to do and its definitely not something I like to do but I'm gonna stick it out for atleast a year cause I don't have experience and other than 1 or 2 people, my colleagues are all super awesome!

My best partner in crime who is in China right now for a holiday. :(

Let's not get into the work that I have to do,  shall we? Or it's just gonna be all complains and rants and more complains. Hahahaha.

What I can say is that I'm happy with my life right now, contented. I've always believe that everything happens for a reason and right now, my life doesn't have any major OMG going on. It's pretty much quite mundane actually. And that's okay.

Cause that's all that matters.